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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 06:48

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I was very sick at this time too.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

This is soul school!.

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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Ive learnt so much.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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So, i spoilt her more .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

She found it foreign!.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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I never cut or harmed myself..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I was scared of men, in general

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why do some people tell the girl I like that I don’t like her when I do like her?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I could never make a relationship work though!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She loved him until the end.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She was in good health!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She wouldn,t have been !

Who then, do I blame.?

When she asked me how she looked .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But it wasn’t much.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Put me off passion for life!!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My life is so biszare .

What did i know ?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I said to her

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I don,t even have a pension.

All the time i was locked up.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

We were not on the streets..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

It was going to be , some day.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But, we were locked up after school.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I was seconnd youngest,

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She married twice! .

One cannot live in the past .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I have no regrets .

My family never makes their pension either.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And i lived it daily.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Comes on , in middle age.

I was 9 years of age.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He knew the spot.

We all went to grammer schools

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I waited trembling.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As i do to all so called friends.?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Would this be the day?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

So whats the point in blame.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I write beautiful poetry .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I think the readers, may guess!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I will be 64.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im still living with it.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!